Not quite what I used to be

....but also not quite there yet.

Going through a season where DAD is straightening out my idiosyncrasies.....point blank.....straight to the face!!! It's been a wrestle where I just held my ground and refused to budge...like why must I put up with certain characters at work and still maintain my cool?!!! Every day, I yell out a silent scream to DAD to get me another job!!!

Since i had the flu and stayed home for 2 days.....something inside me physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually slowed down. I begin to surrender...a little at a time. While I allow HIM to fix me up in certain areas, I'm chalking up idiosyncrasies in other areas.....NEVERENDING!!!

For months, I refused to get on my knees to intercede.....what's the point??!! Don't see no breakthroughs! But I'm yielding now, even when i haven't got a clue what i'm interceding for. Joyce Meyer always says, there's no drive-thru breakthroughs!

To borrow John Maxwell's words...I'm educated beyond my level of obedience. Well, I'm not staying that way. NO MORE!!!